So, I have a book in which I wrote a few poems. I was re-reading these, and thought that one or two were somewhat decent. These are admittedly from a period when my mindset was darker, so please overlook that. I think there are nuggets of truth, however, in these poems, and that is why I am sharing them here!
What a friend it appears to be
How nicely it takes your side
And attempts to smooth over inconveniences
Puts you to fitful sleep with its lying lullabies.
The victory is yours in every war
Self-inflicted wounds are but evidence
Of the other party’s guilt
All is yours for the taking, and rightfully so.
How delightfully it whispers in your ear
And how delighted it is to find you prey
To fall victim to your own self is weakness
Such a false strength you dwell in.
Is it dawning on you yet?
Have you caught glimpses through the fog of the chains
That imprison you? Gleeful laughter and a
Sinking stomach make for misery.
Yes, you see it now, don’t you
How long you inhabited this stinking pit
And by your own choice
Awareness comes too late for escape.
That is its best lie
It seeks to hold you in the chains you possess the key to
Hold back your self-loathing, a by-product of its wretchedness
Break its power by shattering the mirror.
You fade into the background, your image is impossible
To discern in the broken shards. For the first time you see clearly.
Without a proper reflection, the focus shifts
The chains come off.
Seeping back, like wet mud through a sift
Your mind is full of disturbing problems
It is familiar and welcome. Shatter the mirror and
Break the chains.
This is the reality
The world that ripples beneath this reality
The ancient remains we’ve built upon
Here the noise is silent
The wind, trees, birds possess a
A massage for the senses
Here there are no news updates
No sound bites
Here I realize just how far I’ve strayed
Isn’t this all we need?
Here I’m close
To where I should be
Here I feel Him
In the wind, the shifting shades of the leaves
Here I’m quieted, too
Hushed down to the essence
“Be still and know that I am God.”